I can't change what happened and that is something that I have to learn to live with.

I'm going to worry less about the little things and, most importantly, I will allow myself to be happy.

Forever young and beautiful," he says.

Happy to be alive, happy to be me.

We were like the monsters we pretended to be when we were five. Soggy, sandy and bedraggled, our faces aching from laughter and our voices raw. Free and happy.